With pain and joy my friend
Life and death on talking terms​
Presence is now the base
In all conscious experience,
Little to infinite space,
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Heeding the call of the moment,
No path and all paths collapse
Into the wisdom of the heart
​​From life is happening to me
To life is happening through me,
Awakening in resonance
I am guided deeper
Into sadness and gladness,
Madness and kindness
And the awareness
That I am everything and nothing,
Bounded and infinite,
Here and everywhere,
Converging into love.​​​​​
If you are called to awaken together, let's learn from one another, share the same moment in loving kindness, and illuminate for each other what only we can illuminate for each other.
Awakening Support
Illuminating the Heart
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My intention is to support you to fulfill whatever it is that you sincerely desire in your awakening process and that I know I can be of help with- whether that be:
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Processing challenging experiences
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Seeing blindspots
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Navigating decisions
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Recognizing your own beauty and gifts
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Clarifying life purpose
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Harmonizing and caring for your relationships
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Realizing a goal
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Connecting to your body
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Connecting to your mind
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Developing presence
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Accessing unified states of consciousness
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Opening your heart to more love and authenticity
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Learning how to hold your own experience with more kindness and wisdom.
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At the heart of what I do, is to connect to both yours and my experience with acceptance and discernment and share whatever insights arise that I feel are beneficial.
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We can talk, we can sit silently, we can cry and laugh, move and dance, sing and shout. We can connect online or in-person, inside our outside, on a walk or curled up on the floor. We can explore deep emotions and feelings, subtle states of energy and/or we can examine our experience with clear analysis and reason.
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You are welcome as a student, as a teacher, as a client, as a peer, as family, and always as a friend
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Intentional Economics
You are welcome to pay a lot, a little or nothing at all. We can do a fixed priced arrangement, tiered priced arrangement or an open donation arrangement. We can even invent something entirely new that works for both of us. You can give me money or you can gift me something I love and require. You can even decide to give to me by giving to someone else. What's important is that our economic relationship is held consciously, lovingly and feels true.​​​
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If connecting with me resonates, we can schedule a preliminary call to see if we are aligned
Please feel free to contact me with any questions via WhatsApp, text/call , email or schedule a connection using the link below.
Background
In middle of 11th grade I ran away from home to find peace at a Buddhist monastery in central-eastern Thailand. Sitting alone in the quiet grove that surrounded the meditation hut I was given, for the first time, I intentionally decided to accept the moment as it was. The usual whirr of anxious comparison, punishing evaluation, obsessive analysis and agitation fell quiet, and a peace, unknown to me prior, flooded my heart.
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​Around 5 years ago, I decided to leave the Buddhist world so that I might understand my awakening process in a more personal way. I let go of meditation as a technique, and began embracing it as a way of life. My guiding questions became:
Am I present?
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Am I moving as the moment or against it?
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Is this coming from an open heartlove or fear? Kindness or greed?am I trying to hold onto something that I'm not accepting I like that is passing, ?
Or am I impulsively protecting myself from an experience I don't want to accept is happening?​
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​As my experience moved out of its Buddhist container, my path realigned itself to flow alongside my now life partner, Madeleine. Our connection and her expansive psychic energetic field helped unlock profound states of emptiness, accompanied by superconscious fields of awareness. These experiences reestablished my connection to the wider fabric of reality.​
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For the next 12 years I would spend more than a year accumulatively in silent retreats and hours every day sitting in stillness.
On my fourth Vipassana retreat, my sense of subject-object perception collapsed. I realized that what I thought was me, was an impersonal flow of consciousness arising in and out of source at stunning velocity. For long periods, there was no one having an experience- just unshakeable presence. Excruciating pain as well as euphoric bliss came and went.
Layer after layer of unreconciled, unconscious experience rose up and resolved, leaving the landscape of my mind profoundly transformed. For the next year and a half, my first response to any experience was love. It was here that I understood that healing was truly possible, and that fulfillment of the highest order was a real aspiration for my life.
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I discovered slowly, that this wider reality was communicating to me- guiding me. Whenever, I moved, talked, thought, felt, or acted in anyway that wasn't consciously aligned to this field, my body would tense, my mind would sense something was off, my speech was cut off. On the other hand, when I acted in harmonious awareness with this field, my words resounded, my movements flowed, my thoughts were meaningful- my heart resonated.
Over the last two and a half years, resonance has become the destination and the path- presence the default state. The heart has has revealed my natural healing process, unique gifts and greater life purpose, and I have had the fortune to share these with others through retreats my wife and I have hosted together, and in connection with individuals both formally and informally.
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Slowly, I have centered my life around love- for myself, for Madeleine, for my community, for the world and beyond. While there are many parts of me that still do no feel safe or accepted, there is a sense now that they will all be tended to in due time, and that even in their current unresolved form, they are cherished as teachers and catalysts for a fuller heart.
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Other Ways of Connecting
Weekend Group Retreats: From Friday afternoon to Monday morning, connect to heart resonance through personal, interpersonal, group flow states and healing dynamics. Retreat co-created around intentions set forth by yourself and the group.
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Sanctuaries: Book a self-retreat space on a beautiful 28 acre wooded estate in the Lower Hudson Valley, an 1.5 hours by train or car from New York City. The property features forest trails, a pond & running stream, meditation and yoga studio, and private rooms (personal retreats can be combined with Individual Awakening Connections).